A lot of big stuff is happening right now, a lot. And I'm having a hard time keeping up/rolling with it/adjusting. There's two weeks left until graduation: dead week and finals weeks. Here's my week catch-up of my roller coaster emotions.
(stress): school, school, school and grades. two particular professors and their insanely bizarre way of grading final papers that are worth 30% of my grade. late nights turning into morning in the library.
(anxious): where we are going to live after may 31st. change. not sleeping. money.
(excitement): having the whole summer to spend with melissa & my nieces (they live in germany and the last time I was with them was 3 years ago for Christmas), graduation, a vegas trip planned on a whim with my sisters + their husband + chris, secret #1, secret #2, secret #3. free time.
(guilt): not being able to put 100% time and effort into my work tasks, taking my parents for granted, being indecisive. not being able to spend more time with/give more attention to my friends, only being available for bits and pieces.
(disappointment): in myself, secret #4.
(curiosity): with weddings and my graduation all being so close together and so soon, is it cool that I just wear the same dress (in the nude color) to all of them? either way, it's happening.
What’s been playing on my Pandora station:
Liar (It Takes One to Know One) - Taking Back Sunday, Wonderwall - Oasis, Just Let Go - Mae