little dears,

dear parents,
Thank you, thank you for the Disneyland presents. I feel like a boss when I drink my sweet tea now. Plastic cups, never again.

speaking of pirates…dear pirates of the caribbean 4,
Me during the movie: “Waah I miss Orlando Bloom & Keira Knightley’s characters. Wait, are those mermaids? Soooo pretty!”

dear face,
Why am I still having spontaneous acne break-outs eight years after puberty? Clear this up already!

dear Chris,
I feel very sneaky that I know what all will happen in TrueBlood before this season even starts, thanks to reading the novels. And now, since I dropped by the bookstore this afternoon, I will be all knowing about Game of Thrones as well. Sucker.

dear nba,
Tired of all the Heat bandwagon fans. And still bitter than neither the Lakers or the Thunder made it to the Finals. I’m ready for next season already.

dear amanda,
If we don’t show up tomorrow to help you move, that means you’ll stay right?

we made plans to be unbreakable

*lyrics from Mae song

thunder up or go home

Ring, sunglasses, satchel - forever 21, tee - chris’, denim shorts - diy, belt - thrifted, thunder cup - from a game

I’m at home snuggled up on the couch with Ossie and desperately trying to not doze off during the Thunder game. (Surely the Mavs aren’t going to knock off both my western teams?! Gaah. #foreverhatingdirk) Allergy medicine + only 4 hours of sleep last night is what I’m running on.

I’ve been go go go since 930 this morning: job follow-ups, picking up my textbooks for my summer course (eek $80 gone!), finalizing my fall class schedule (18 hours), returning emails, errands, and a stop at Lowe’s. Wait, what? A stop at Lowe’s?…that’s right, I’m getting a little proactive with our yard/garden.

Awkward moment of the day: When Chris is listing dinner options since we’ve majorly put off grocery shopping: cereal, frozen waffles, or ice cream. I’ll be taking an Oreo shake for dinner, please and thank you.

wish to wear / pacsun

Since I have zero budget for clothes right now, I do the mature thing and taunt myself by making clothing wish lists and then irritably delete them. So why not share my window shopping (via the web) what I would be wearing if I had the dolla-dolla bills yall.

bringing back the #wish to wear

if we're being honest

Despite being pretty open with my personal life, I still get unnerved with sharing things that I consider private. But this one, I should let you know: for the past semester I haven’t been feeling much like myself.

In my life, the things I’ve cared about and strove for came very naturally. I’ve always been head strong and passionate. But now that my life has been changing, I’m having trouble ironing out my priorities and trusting my instincts. I’ve been apathetic and unmotivated at a colossal level. I’d go through spells of anxiety and pouting and hating everything that I putting so much time into. I didn’t feel talented at anything I was doing and eventually wasn’t putting fully into it.

Despite being pretty open with my personal life, I still get unnerved with sharing things that I consider private. But this one, I should let you know: for the past semester I haven’t been feeling much like myself.
In my life, the things I’ve cared about and strove for came very naturally. I’ve always been head strong and passionate. But now that my life has been changing, I’m having trouble ironing out my priorities and trusting my instincts. I’ve been apathetic and unmotivated at a colossal level. I’d go through spells of anxiety and pouting and hating everything that I putting so much time into. I didn’t feel talented at anything I was doing and eventually wasn’t putting fully into it.

I couldn't make up my mind when it came to larger life concerns. Why am I feeling this way? What are my reasons for doing/not doing this? Where do I want to be? What do I need to change? It's kind of been a big slop that I've just been trying to trudge through. I feel like a lot people my age/my situation are going through the same things/"is this what I want to be knees deep in?". So what am I doing now? Nothing too different than before. I'm trying not to feel rushed to be what other people want me to be and be honest with myself. Oh, and a big one: that there doesn't have to be a side of guilt with everything. I can change my mind, I can go at my own pace, and create new opportunities for myself.

It’ll work out. I’m already feeling better about it, if I’m being honest.

what i like about summer

• Mondays don't seem as bad

promise of summer

Sandwiches, rolled up shorts, & fishing at my parent's = what we’re doing instead of going to our high school alumni weekend. With sites like facebook, who even needs reunions to check up on old classmates? I don’t even remember the last time I went fishing! No matter how many times I hear the hooks don’t hurt the fish, I still get a bit wormy about it pulling the hooks out and taking too long to do it.

Chris may have caught a dozen more fish, but I caught the biggest one!

weightless

Top - my mom’s, jeans, engineering boots - Forever 21, belt - thrifted, ring - Free People

Even though we’re staying the whole week to house/pet sit for my parent’s, I had to run home to for an interview at an upscale boutique and to pick up a few things from the house Chris’ vitamins. He’s paranoid about not taking them! I don’t have many sleek, professional looking clothing so I opted for a smart, casual summer look without showing off legs. Engineer boots from this post & thrifted belt seen here and here.

The look didn’t transfer that well on camera, but I like the outfit! It was nearly impossible to snap nice looking photos this afternoon. I either ended up looking like this or I’d have dogs running through the photo.

I’m munching on a sandwich and I think we’re about to go out & try to do some fishing! Haha, we’ll see how well that goes…at best we’ll some sun!

 Two of my parent’s pups: Sandy, a lemon beagle, and Molly, doberman/chocolate lab

and we're off!

Leather jacket, purse, leggings - Forever 21, hoodie, Ossie’s bandana - local shop, tank - American Eagle, sneakers - Converse

Mom: Make sure to keep May 17th open!
Me: No problem, what’s going on?
Mom: Your dad and I are going to Disneyland and meeting up with Rob and Nicole!
Me: Like a couples weekend!
Mom: Yeah, and…
Me: (omg! She’s going to invite Chris and I to come too! This is so cool. Is it too tourist-y to get some cute Minnie Mouse ears? I don’t care, I’m going to do it.)
Mom: And we need you to come watch the dogs.

Waaah waaaah. Haha, but it’s all good because we get to spend the week spoiling their cute new pup…

 Molly in her (cat) bed.

*alternate blog title: always posting about dogs

raised in a summer haze

Just before high school, my family moved from Las Vegas to Oklahoma. It was a very unwelcome change, at first. Aside from having my friends there, I was use to big neighborhoods packed tightly with houses and a pick of restaurants. Suddenly, I had to adjust to a small town (“what? only 90 people in a graduating class?!”) and a house in the country. And even though I fought my parents, it was a good move for us. I love where I grew up and I love escaping this college town to go back.

Chris has always been a southern boy and I was tickled to find out that his family had a ranch with horses(and sometimes cows). And since we’ve found out one of the horses is pregnant and expecting her first colt tomorrow, we’ve popped in to visit quite often over the past two weeks!

Photos taken at Chris' family ranch

rabbit hearted girl

Headband - ASOS, sweater - gifted from mom, romper - Old Navy, cowboy boots, pearl ring - Forever 21

Hello everyone! I feel like I’ve been a bit absent from posting. I’m taking advantage of summer & all this free time to explore/wander around/begin little projects. I have loads of photos, but I haven’t had much commentary to write so…yeah, I haven’t been posting.

A little different format today than my usual outfit posts against my garage! We spent some time earlier this week at Chris’ family ranch (pictures later, I promise!) so I kept my cowboy boots for this look. I’m wearing my only romper as seen here and here. Aka I wear it all the time! I’d really like another…maybe a floral or striped romper. And one in coral. And while we’re talking about wishlists, these moccasin booties would be nice too!

We watched Blue Valentine. I feel like I watch a lot of crap tv and overly hyped blockbuster movies, so I love coming across movies like Blue Valentine and Rabbit Hole (also worth a watch!) that are tucked in rows of rentals. They’re just intense and show the grit and beauty of vulnerability. Yay for good film-making and not cheesy plots!

Time to get started on dinner…it’s taco night!